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Hm..
Not much going on, Basically beein chillin' with Ally a lot latly.

Boys are lame, Confusing and stupid.

When someone text them, They should like text back and stuff.

Blah.
Not much to talk about really.

Just got home.

Things have been good since i last wrote. Except for today.

Me and Jared talked today, We decided to be just friends, I basically told him everything. I cried and he was real sweet about it. But it was the best decision. Then went to the park. Girls always doing their drama. Its pretty lame, Thats why i have 0 drama friends. Or just girls that are friends in general, I only have Ally, Eva, & Christine. Oh well. Shows how much we used to be "best friends" Yeah ok. Whatever drama is lame, And i shan't participate especially if it isn't worth fighting for :]. My mom was mega pissed though lol. My mom like hates people now. Don't call me a slut, K? Because im most def. not the one who is one :]. K the end, We're not friends.. Don't fight k? Its stupid drama and things not worth fighting for. We don't have to be friends, Im content with that :]

Im getting a laptop here in a few days, Its not a super nice one its pretty old but i don't really care. Sup sims2! Plus its free since Jill got a new one. :] Who's super happy.. Me!? Yes. i think so.

Over to Ally's house tongiht should be a good time. Then out with g-plan to Adventure Golf in Centerville. My friends are like amazing and stuff. Be jealous :]. Then my moms birthday party tomorrow. :]

Today was not a good day.
Im not going to sum it all up for you kids but it was arguments, Loosing friendships, Finding out you never really knew, Crying in parking lots, DDR,& Putt-Putt. In the end it all turned out good. But idk makes me think a lot.
Things were rocky with the friends but i dont' think much anymore. We'll see.


Other than that, I'm confused. I'm tired of peoples shitty advice they think is so easy. I don't know what to do anymore and i feel like im being a bitch and not being fair. Im so fucking stupid and make such bad choices and i regret how i acted last october.
This may not make sence to you, I don't care. i think things could be so different right now and i could be so happy but i fucked up. I hate this.

Other good news, I think i might have got some sun today in the pool :] thats always good.

i miss people.
[sarah,haley,brittany,michelle] They were all really good friends of mine that i feel like im drifting from.
i have to go my moms being a bitch.

I got a call today.

I'm going to "intern" at Childrens Hospital, And at Hanger in Columbus with Karen. [my 2ndback doctor] For a few days, Since thats the field I want to go into. Get my some Community Service hours and stuffs :]. I can't wait. Im gonna get to work with kids and learn some stuff. It should be good for me :]

"Someone from your past has returned to steal your heart"

Hm, Thats what my fortune cookie fortune says.

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i don't regret this yet.

I don't know if i will. I don't think so.
I didn't hold anything back this time.

I don't care if i sound crazy or what.

The past few days have been good.
Allyson, Eva, & I have good times :D
Along with the boys aswell.
Throwing rocks at windows and scaring people is not cool. Just clearing that up :P
America's Next Top Model is owning my life today lol..These past few days have been really good, I love my friends more than anything in the world, I can't wait til Monday, Kings Island with the gang :D Yeahyeah. Things with the boy are ioafio. Not really anything serious, I'm just really confused about what i want and blahblah. Haley just needs some time to think and to talk to some people. Things will be good. Eventually.. I hope.

Idk.
Rahrah. I have my friends, And thats enough for me :]
<3

Where'd you go, I miss you so.

That songs stuck in my head. My little brother played it for me earlier and said it reminded him of our dad. then he tried to talk about it. I had to walk away. It was a real hard day yesterday. It kinda seems like Brady wants to replace our dad with my moms boyfriend, And it was really pissing me off for awhile. Then i started to realize that he doesn't have anyone,He doesn't really even have memories like me and dom do. Idk it was just hard.

Anyways.. i was supposta wake up early so my boy could take me out to breakfast and stuff.
oops. Haley overslept. :x lol. Not good news. G-PLAN TODAY! I can't wait.. I need to go shower.. Peace.

Hi i'm haley & i'm insanly confused. I had a dream last night and talked to Ally about it and it made me think a lot.. Am i making one hugh mistake? Idk blah. Hanging out with Ally a& Eva-Scott tonight.. The girls of G-plan together, No good should come of this except good times. lol. Boy wants to hang out with me today, I kinda feel bad i haven't hung out with him the last 2 days but I really want to be with my friends today and yeah. Oh well, He'll have to get over it. I mean my friends are always. going to come first. Im real tired, I'm tired of people waking me up every morning by calling or pounding on my door. I'm asleep for a reason. I'm turning my phone on silence all instead of vibrate from now on. Because sometimes it still rings. If you're important you know my house number to get a hold of me at 12. I've been writting a lot latly, It sucks but it sucks me in and makes me forget about my own life for a few minutes. I know its bad but oh well. But I'm gonna go.. See ya<3

&&edit.
Wow im a loser, I update all the time. Idk i feel like i can talk more on livejournal than i could on xanga. Today was dgjgdag im really really confused only a few people i can talk to about it that i actually think will not lie to me and will not tell anyone and all that stuff. Today is Fathers day..:/ Not my most favorite day ever. Pretty much the worst, Plus it doesn't help my state of mind on other things.uidghuiodd. I wish i would have hung out with my boy today.. i never did though i thought i had plans, But they fell through and i didn't think to call because i thought he already had plans. Orthodontist tomorrow then with gplan hopefully all goes well :]